I’ve been noticing lately that I’ve been on autopilot a little more often, just getting through my busy days in default mode.
It happens sometimes.
Sometimes it just feels like the humdrum of everyday life – drag yourself out of bed, rush off to work, check off the to-do list, hurry up and get home, collapse onto the couch. Repeat daily.
Sometimes, though, you begin to take notice. I did by the week’s end, but by that time I was just about to tell just about everybody to just piss off (politely, of course).
And I was pissed off.
A relative is in town visiting, the teen had this thing to do on Wednesday, that thing to do on Thursday, and just one more thing (she-forgot-to-tell-me-about) to do on Friday.
Last night, I’d suddenly realized I hadn’t read much, walked in nature, or even meditated for three whole days.
I was pissed off, at myself.
Make conscious choices.
I’d realized that I wasn’t making conscious choices – I had allowed circumstances, even other people, to make choices for me, just dragging me along.
When I deliberately choose what to think, say, and do in my life, I purposefully live my life. I am not following, chasing, or even just trying to catch up with the expectations of others, or some unrealistic notions of what I’m supposed to think, say, or do, who I’m supposed to be.
When I make conscious choices, I lead my life in the direction I choose to go. I take action in and responsibility for living my own life.
And living life out loud is good.
Take deliberate actions.
Later this morning, the teen wants to travel somewhere to practice, to play. It’ll be a three-hour tour for me. I’m willing to taxi her. I truly am. Her playful practice brings me happiness too.
She’s brilliant, and it’s beautiful to see her play.
And I’ve deliberately decided to play myself while she’s out, playing out her own life. I’ll take a good, long hike for about an hour. And then I’ll go and sit in a little local coffee shop for a hot cup and a good read.
It’ll be invigorating and delicious.
It’s easier than you think.
Sometimes, as I snap out of it, this automatic thinking thing, I think it’s hard to make deliberate, conscious choices. Being mindful is hard, but it’s easy too.
All you have to do is be consciously aware of your thinking. Just think about everything you think, say, and do. Just practice. Make it a habit. Be deliberate. Live consciously.
It’s that easy.
Do you ever experience autopilot or default mode? What choices do you make? What actions do you take?